“And they overcame
him because the blood of the Lamb, and because of the word of their testimony,
and they did not love their life even unto death.” Revelation 12:11.
We’ve seen that
there are three aspects of “the word of their testimony”; that which Jesus
Christ testifies about Himself, that which the Church has historically
confessed about Jesus Christ – particularly as expressed in the Nicene Creed, and
what we personally testify about Jesus Christ. While my “personal testimony” is
important, it is important that it be faithful to Jesus’ testimony about
Himself as contained in the entire Word of God, and that it also be faithful to
what the Church has held to be the core of the Gospel and the truth about Jesus
Christ, and which has fundamental expression in the Nicene Creed.
The creeds provide
us an opportunity to catechize our people and to model clear Biblical thinking –
thinking that is confident, sincere, orderly, and succinct. The creeds train us
to do sound Biblical theology.
As we think
about what we often term our “personal testimony,” I struggle with how best to
approach the subject, because while I deeply hold to a personal and intimate
relationship with Jesus Christ, and while I passionately believe that, in Christ,
we are called into a koinonia (communion, fellowship) with the Trinity (the depths
of which are beyond our comprehension), I also recognize that personal
testimonies today are often far afield from the confession of Jesus Christ
about Himself, and from the confession of the historic Church about Jesus Christ.
When I first
came to know Jesus Christ, there is no doubt that the seed of the Word was
planted in me and was working in me; however, I was anything but a cultivated
plant, a plant being formed in a deliberate fashion; in many respects I was
more a wild weed than a plant with purpose. Even though I came to know the
Bible as a young adult, my knowing the Bible was more on my own terms than on
God’s terms, I was more about the Bible submitting to me rather than submitting
myself to the Word of God. I didn’t realize this at the time and I don’t
pretend to understand all of the dynamics involved; I have often written and
said that one of my great regrets, and I have many, is that I didn’t have older
men to mentor me and help form me as a disciple of Jesus Christ.
Sadly, my “personal
testimony” was all that seemed to matter to my first pastors and other adults
when I came to know Jesus as a teenager. As I write this, I am reminded that in
my last pastorate some people were surprised when I insisted on meeting with
prospective members (along with other church leaders) to listen to them tell me
about their relationship with Jesus Christ, including what they believed about
Him. There were prospective members who were advanced in years who said, “Pastor,
when I’ve joined churches in the past no one has ever had a conversation with
me like this.”
Now I don’t want
to offend anyone, because I know there are traditions in which you simply walk
down the aisle to join a church, but I want to respectfully ask, “How can it be
that no pastor or church leadership group ever had a dedicated discussion with these
dear people, who were then in their 60s and 70s, about the nature of their
faith in Jesus Christ? With all respect, I don’t see how this is responsible to
Christ or to people. And let me sadly say, that I have known many dear people,
well – advanced in age and who have been “in church” all their lives, who know
little of the truth of the Nicene Creed and to whom the Bible is pretty much a
sealed book.
A personal
testimony not formed into the image of the Creed and the Bible can be a
dangerous thing – dangerous to the individual and dangerous to others. In
my own life I think there were times when I was more poison ivy than a fruit
tree – because I was living what was supposed to be a Christian life of
discipleship on my own terms, and while there may have been times I was a
blessing to others, I was often a discredit to Christ and hurt others. All that
mattered to my first pastors and churches was my personal testimony, it didn’t
matter whether or not that testimony was being formed into the image of Jesus
Christ. Practically speaking, this attitude may be less of a problem with
people who tend to be conformists, but it is highly volatile with those who are
accustomed to going their own way. (Naturally, it is still a problem with conformists
which is why I write “practically speaking,” in other words, it may appear less
of a problem on the surface, but it is still a problem, as my last pastorate
illustrates).
When I write about my first pastors and the first churches I attended, I am simply making observations and I hold no ill will toward them, they were only doing what they had always done, they were only living in their particular church cultures. They certainly loved me and accepted me and made me feel welcome, and without that acceptance I have no idea the direction my life would have taken. They took the Bible seriously, and while they framed the Bible in the context of their denominational traditions, in this respect they were pretty much like all other denominations.
As I was coming to know Christ, I first gravitated toward the
denomination in which I was nominally raised, but when it became apparent to me
that the Bible was not held in high regard, I was blessed to be introduced to
the tradition in which I spent the first few years of my Christian life. I will
always be thankful for those two pastors and churches – they did the best they
could.
What is a
testimony? What is a personal testimony? I am not sure that this is a simple
question with a simple answer. Yes, at times it can be as simply reduced to
Peter saying, “Lord, to whom shall we go? You have words of eternal life. We
have believed and have come to know that You are the Holy One of God” (John 6:68
– 69).
But let me
suggest that Peter and his fellow disciples came to this realization through a
process and that the process was continuing. Later Peter would say, “You are
the Christ, the Son of the living God” (Matthew 16:16), and he would say this because
the Father revealed it to him (Matt. 16:17); but even then, as we see in
Matthew 16:21 – 23 and 26:69 – 75, Peter’s testimony was still in process.
If our personal
testimonies carry with them the aspect of relationship with Jesus
Christ; if an element of them is, “I know Him,” then let me ask if intimate relationships
are simple – I have not found them to be simple, have you?
When I say, “Where
else would I go? Jesus Christ alone has the words of eternal life,” I am making
a statement based on years of experience and relationship with Jesus Christ in
and through His Word, and in and through His Church. While I may have made this
statement as a young Christian, and while I may have made it twenty or thirty
years into my Christian life, it has a far more seasoned ring to it today, and
I trust the seasoning will continue until I bow before Him face to face. “Where
else would I go?” is not a slogan, it is not something to be degraded to a
bumper sticker or put on a coffee mug, it is the ground of reality, the core of
who I am in Christ – in this respect it is my testimony; it is the fruit of a
relationship with Jesus Christ that is anything but simple, yes, it has
fundamental “grounds” (think Nicene Creed), but it is not simple…no matter how
simply stated it may be at times.
We’ll pick this
up in the next post.
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